Tuesday, 28 September 2010

feedback regarding pre & post dads death

Rite finally I get some feedback regarding my dads sister if you all can remember the post I made regarding do I call her or not etc…well we have gone past that bit she called me back and we arranged to meet up

So she came over to my flat with her husband and boy…my husband left as soon he knew they were coming hoping to give us some space to catch up not knowing she was arriving with her battalion …so much for us catching up ..but I guess she did that cos she didn’t know wat to expect so she came with some backup lol..

She came and there were some awkward silences but since I was the host I had to make conversation…the conversation covered areas such as Nigerian businesses etc and then we landed on the topic we all feared my dads death

She said “oh I thot u guys were on good terms before he died and I was like hell no…I challenged him saying he knew nothing about me…the day I was born my lifestyle my likes and dislikes etc and he just didn’t act bothered he just said ok( ps ull need to read my post on “pre and post” to understand this better)

She was like u know he was under so much pressure and u know the men in our family are all spoiled when they are faced with challenges they just cower…I was like I don’t think that’s a suitable excuse esp after our last conversation,.,,

Through having this whole conversation I almost felt like crying cos I wuda preferred to hear it from the horses mouth instead of someone else speaking on his behalf…but yeh she sha explained how he really wanted to know me and didn’t know ow to go about it,..

Then it was time to exchange goodbyes…she said I shud just try and let the past events be…I put on a voltron defender of the universe look …like men I aint bothered,.,.but seemingly as she said that there was a cold wind that blew that caused me to shiver…shiver at the thot of letting go of the past or shiver from the weather I would like to think it’s the weather unfortunately it isn’t…im still bleeding from the questions I wanted to ask him that I never will get to ask him…I thot I was over him his death and I thot I had forgiven him especially wen I spoke to hubby about these things and I seemingly got comfy…but wen these peeps visited I realised the wound was still fresh a totally different feeling…I can definitely say if her husband wasn’t there I wuda cried…but I had to put on a brave face…

Now the next face begs for me to act and guard my heart…its been two weeks and I haven’t called her yet am I to call or is she to call

Do I go return the visit

And wen is the right time to return the visit

I have these questions in my head a million and one times and no decision I make seems right…I say ill visit in a month but that seems too early to return her visit…Ill say ill call her but then wen is the rite time to call and wat the hell am I to talk about …these are a fraction of the thots in my head,,,any suggestions bloggers?

Ur girl barefeet!


Sad times

Was goin to have my hair done in Camden today and I cudnt help but notice the aura and atmosphere around, it was bold …unforgiving and proudly celebrating demonic spirits…as I write this I feel so sad and I ask myself how does God feel in heaven if I feel this way….

I walked past a few tattoo and piercing signs and when I mean a few im talking about 20 signs on a high street which is ridiculous especially what are competitors meant to do…but hey that was the least of my worries…

It started out with the names of the stores the first that caught my attention was the one named worlds end…u can say the connotation to that is a million and one but hey when ure in the Camden atmosphere u will know that was more than a play on words,,,the next store that caught my sight was the one called underworld surely I said to myself that cant be a coincidence…and then to top it all of a few blocks away I saw a store about three floors high it had the head of “baphomet” as the logo …it had no name just the logo and that was it…this link that explains who baphomet is http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Baphomet

The fact that it was three floors high and the head of this creature was that tall…and I said to myself why are these peeps playing about with the occultic and devilish ideas without regard ….its either they have no regard for it so they mock it…or they use it as the selling point for the masses who are interested in stuff like that…

So that has left me with a heavy heart today and I thot id share it with u guys…the thing is I know this exists everywhere but at least id like to think its subtle and subliminal …but by the time u have the devils head as ur logo on ur shop and u got voodoo dolls plastered all over the clothes on sale in ur shop I just think that when u truly know “it’s the worlds end”

Ur girl barefeet

Thursday, 16 September 2010


''Do u speak Nigerian?'' is a question I got asked a whole lot while I was at Uni in the Uk. Along
with ''Do you live in a hut?'', and ''Why is your street called 'Sawyerr Crescent? Is yr father a king?''

And for the umpteenth time I would patiently, if somewhat exasperatedly explain that ''Nigerian'' is not a language.

Except, I realised, it is...

We have a unique, unmistakable, altogether ''Nigerian'' way of expressing ourselves.

We have all been told to ''Off the light'', and ''ExpaNtiate'' on what we mean. We say ''I'm coming'' when we're going, and we're ''vexing'' when we're angry.

We make ''sachet'' sound like ''hatchet'', and some of us see with our ''heyes'', and live in a
'' 'ouse...'' Some ladies wear ''bogus'' earrings, and this is the only country where ''flashing'' is legal...
I love the music of conversations interspersed with ''jo'', ''jare'', ''fashy'' and ''abeg, abeg...''
The sounds that are not words, but are as loaded with meaning as a sub-machine gun...

I love that our conversations are as animated and dramatic as the scripts of our ''home video'' movies.

I love that four Nigerians in a foreign country can have a friendly conversation that sounds to others like we are minutes away from kicking each other in the teeth....

And I love how even when we are speaking English to each other, nobody understands what we're saying....
Theres nothing more comforting than sharing the bonds of familiar expression when you are all strangers in a strange land...

So next time I'm asked,

''Do you speak Nigerian?''

I will smile broadly, and answer proudly,

''Actually, yes I do :-)''

Its ur girl barefeet!

Friday, 10 September 2010

guess? (reply)

the next to long for?

And the perfect view of your behind, making my wand to bulge?

As I lay here in anticipation, I also marvel at her unsatiable thirst for more


The dose was soothing
absolutely adequate
seemingly heated
although therapeutic
exhilirating but not thirst quenching
neither will another dose be satisfactory
as my thirst is untamed!

from a mans perspective

These are our rules!
Please note.. these are all numbered “1 “


1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat.

You’re a big girl. If it’s up, put it down.

We need it up, you need it down.

You don’t hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports It’s like the full moon

or the changing of the tides.

Let it be.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.

Let us be clear on this one:

Subtle hints do not work!

Strong hints do not work!

Obvious hints do not work!

Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That’s what we do.

Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.

In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you think you’re fat, you probably are.

Don’t ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

1. You can either ask us to do something

Or tell us how you want it done.

Not both.

If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials..

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.

Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit.

We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched.

We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say “nothing,” We will act like nothing’s wrong.

We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don’t want an answer to,

Expect an answer you don’t want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine… Really .

1. Don’t ask us what we’re thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as Football

or golf .

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.

Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;

But did you know men really don’t mind that? It’s like camping!!


pasted from a friends tweet
its ur girl barefeet x