Sugar-husband compulsive disorder (SCD)

Sugar-husband compulsive disorder (SCD)
This I had to write cos i think and know now that the way I define love isn't the way u define love... Wen I describe my relationship it might not be ur ideal relationship

I've come from a place where I had my checklist as to whom I could marry or date
As I grew older many things off that list came off
This then leads me to the story of my SCD"

many men before him had proposed a relationship to me the oldest being 33 and I cursed the living day light out of them ... Saying they were too old .. Sugar daddies ... God forbid... And I was soo into that omarion and lil bow wow look young and pretty boys... I had at Least 3 of them over 30's on my case and one that was 29 which I really made his life a living hell ...the guy beg so tey and I just won't have it.. To the point that he would call and sing to me on the fone soundin like a frog .... I guess what pissed me off was the fact that the first day that he saw me he said my parents will be soo happy to meet me... And im like "wrong" u dnt say that to a girl on the first date except she is 39 and desperately seeking...



Well then my SCD"

I was 19 he was 31
He was 6 foot
I am 5:6"
He was more than a gentleman
He swagger was on point
Well built
Very well spoken
Two left legged (dancing wise of course lol )
And more importantly he was a man
He smelt good
Felt good (when we hugged lol )
Broke me down real good
All my inhibitions about old men out the window
I had a thing for younger guys
But old men always found me attractive cos I acted older than most girls my age
Young guys cudnt stand me Cos they knew I cud read them like a book which had a title
"searching for sex "

So I found that my SCD became my young guy
My perfect gentleman
We played tennis
We had our playfights and wrestled each other
We wined and dined
And i saw him for he who he is
And who he was gonna be
My one and only sugar husband

What happens afterwards when we get hitched is a story for another day... The story of

Small- hoochies compulsive disorder (SCD)

Vs

Sugar husband compulsive disorder (SCD )

The thing is i call it a disorder cos if my 19 year old said to me she found a 31 year old boyfriend automatically the alarm bells of paedophile will start ringing and ur parental security checks will be doubled ... So I call it a disorder as society sees it as one... Guess its become more acceptable Now but u can still
Hear the snigger... (na one sugar daddy she go find marry ,,,i no know why she dey rush into marriage?!!)

But like they say orderly mess
And it's a lovely compulsion of which I'm joyfully addicted to him

to be continued letting u know the positives and negatives of being married to my scd and vice versa...

Its ur girl barefeet!

what happens after the sex?

my Darling bloggers happy new year and merry xmas and the whole lot...its ur girl barefeet im back and ready to do what i do best ....as promised heres one of the many thots that crossed my mind during the long break enjoy...

Many a times I've had to ask wow there's such a hype before the sex... Thots running back and forth perfumes sprayed destroying the ozone layer .... Hair flushed and thrown down the bin in preparation

Nails cut and trimmed and even added for enhancement ( don't ask me for what)

Mercury /foundation/ charcoal .. On the face

Ororo all over lips and skin all given fancy names...

For the men preparation to make the muscles appear larger and stay longer... ( don't ask me where)

Sometimes tablets taken sef to boost confidence... Self easteem or even to dull u so u appear larger than life and are so out of ur face u don't remember the incident... And I wonder nawaooo so much fuss and preparation for that moment of ahhh ( that could be baritone or high pitched depends what u sound like at the moment lol)
Apparently some hit notes like Maria Carey whilst on the other end some sound like Barry White at the moment... Lol

But hey let's fast forward a bit to the bit after... What happens after the sex?

His
Chai I'm shattered gotta put on a brave face


What time is the next game of football on


Oh yeh I have to call my mate. Back to arrange our nite out


Keep focused she's expecting u to say some line like brad Pitt would in the movies??


sleep dey catch me I gotta keep awake


She best know I'm the ish... Damn I got her screaming or on the other end... She didnt even mutter a word


Best brace myself Just in case there's a second half


Damn she felt like a goalpost


Damn she is really a virgin


Hope the condom didn't break


I ain't coming here again


I'll definitely be back damn she was good

And the list is limited!!

Hers
Please say something romantic

Please kiss my forehead and tell me that was beautiful if u can't say I love u at the least


Cuddle up next to me and hold me tight making me feel like I matter


Don't just turn on ur side and act like I didn't just give myself to u


Does he love me or is this just a momentary thing


Damn he was good I'm beginning to fall in love with him


Will he still marry me now that I've given him my body?


Oh God please forgive me for sinning


Oh he was soo crap sex is soo overrated


I hope I don't get pregnant as soon as im showering im taking the pills


what kind of style was that does he think I'm a prostitute?


Na here I go die he was worth the trade off


And the list is truly endless lol


its ur girl barefeet!

ok bloggers i have a confession

sorry i havent been on here replied the comments and all..been having exams  and too much jists for u guys...as in to the point that i have mini typed all the topics i want to talk about on my phone...so bear with me..ill be back on the road and train journeys to uni and back next monday ...(as thats the only time i update my blog) and until then i hope this blogger awards thing is still goin on so i can nominate the nominators...if that makes sense caio love ya

The exchange

So whilst i sat at home on this faithful day I had to think myself what if we exchanged genitals.., u read that right yes i said it ... Me as a lady having a mans genitals and the man having mine..
The whole thot came to me as I thot to myself how would it feel to have excess meat hanging between my legs... Wen I stand I need to readjust to make sure it dangles right cos apparently they do get tied in a knot often and it hurts like bad...

Ps I'm speaking from a perspective of having a broda and husband ... So having watched them my life I have often wondered...so free me lol
How it'll feel to lift ur package into ur pants or boxers evrymorning
Compared to the flatpack that women have
How it'll feel to wake up with a hard on in the morning and not necessarily being horny.. Apparently wen they sleep blood rushes there.. Thus the reason for the hard on!!
To have a wetdream and not being able go hide it... Cos u'll wake up all wet.. Whilst the woman can have a wet dream and she can deny it wen she wakes cos its hidden
To have ur balls disappear into ur sockets and u have to stand up and physically do the "ball dance to get it out """ apparently chinese fighters hide their balls inside the sockets when they're about to fight so they don't get destroyed by the opponent lol
To have it sag so badly in oldage and the probabilities that ur balls will grow longer than ur penis... This is measured whilst standing up lol
Having a lady grind on u and u might just get a hard on and can't hide it.. But no matter how turned a woman is u can't see it ... Well maybe her eyes will give her away.. But surely that's easier
Having to work hard to ensure u appear bigger or longer than the guy next to u in the cubicle... While peeing.. For the ladies there's nothing to measure apart from the boobs
This is Many more are the thots that fill me mind when I think to myself... " what if barefeet had a mans genitals how would it feel" and I've come to the conclusion.. It would be fun for a day but surely not permanently ... I love the subtlety and discreet nature of my genitals i can wear tight jeans without the feat that it will hurt mr John Thomas lol...
For the record I've only physically seen 3 male genitals in my lifetime so I'm not talking from a perspective of one who has experienced or being around a lot of male genitals so pardon my misconceptions... But from a perspective of one who is being fed by the media about the male physique...
In the lines of JJC's song africa-AWOOO!! I say
FEMALE GENITALS - AWOOO!!
It's ur girl barefeet!

Sent from Praise' iPhone

RE; Diaries of a virgin

Barefeet,

You rocked me from the onset - Could I look at you with bravery?
I shivered and shuffled until my luck ran out - EAT Mr...!
How long do you fool a longing heart?
I dashed to the loo one final time; stared at myself .

Saw the look of a desperate cub wanting to live in warmth and also roar in delight.
Is she the one I asked again? The mirror said yes..! My face smiled at me and I saw the grin.
The grin .... the grin.....

Zooming four yrs ahead in my Time capsule, I still marvel.
No one could have made me happier - she is certainly a God send.
Who else do I thank but my Alpha and Omega.

She planted a kiss on me - the first, the best, the unexpected, the timing, the longing
It happened so sudden i loved every minute of it - how dangerous we live i thought.
I marvelled at the thought of a new quest - the quest to love to the abyss of passion.
 
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From the mantle himself...

Diaries of a virgin

The Diaries of a virgin

The thump of my heart reminds me his my first
The way he holds me feels exhilarating even if he is a novice
Watever he does feels like heaven cos I don't know any better
My paraphrase is if I'm happy where I am why go anywhere else
I came he came and exhaustion fills the air

I celebrate my naivety
cos for all I know what I call ejaculation might just be childsplay
There might be better out there
but the height of which I have shared with him seems the pinnacle
and I'm sure I will push to know further
But only with my beloved

I came into this new found truth of sex
Thinking it's all about the pounding the shuffling the fondling
and then proving to him wat a freaky virgin I can be
I've come away from 2 years of sex concluding it's all about
The sweet nothings
The banter
The playfight that leads to amazing love making

Sleeping at the middle of the night with our smelly breath
only to feel a wave of passion seeking my response
I've come away knowing it's not about the act but the serenading and worship of my beloved
I've come away knowing theres absolute bliss in the innocence of a virgin
No comparing partners saying ur ex was better than ur present partner

Just the bliss that ure doing wat u can
and glorying in the fact that ur partner thinks ure the best
Not walking away thinking did I do it better than the ex

His hands fiddle my nipples
Setting alight a wave of excitement
How do I open my legs to ensure
They still look pretty and not desperate for him
How do I Moan so I don't sound like a ho!

Oh no he traces our love down at my garden ruffling the leaves
in search for the fruit that had been locked away for 20 years
He finds it but hesitates to blow upon it
inhaling the scent Which arouses our senses
I wish to return the favour but HOW?!!
I had to spill in a moment of utter silence and promised secrecy
"I've never done this before so please let me know when it's going wrong"
He tries to hold a straight face, but I could see the disbelief in his eyes
Yet the admiration for the honesty
I could also see the excitement that he can tell me just the way he wants it
as i have no idea whats wrong or right

I start at the top of the mantle
Caressing he embodiment of what I have been waiting all my life
And then a shiver consumes me
At the thot of handling the package when it is goin to be delivered?!!
I kissed it trying to avoid any gnashing of teeth
as I know that much that it isn't a pleasant experience for him
I end up using my palms more than my lips for fear of choking
then he steps in taking my Hands off and encouraging my mouth to open
Then we flip the page and just like that

In a moment of hurried passion I saw he was excited as this was more than a bulge
Sliding between my legs in precise definition perhaps 'HD'
He hands the mantle to me but is stopped by the close and tightness of the unlocked garden
A bit more foreplay and for another 30 mins it's seemed like summer was farfetched

Finally to avoid the hurt and bleeding
He strokes with his fingers
and easing into the garden with his fingers

Then he forwards the mantle once more
and on his side there a moan of pleasure
And on my side there utter horror and excitement
(not sure if horror and excitement can be in the same sentence )

There was a breakthrough after another hour of trying to deliver the package all the way I burst in tears trembling ... And utter relief that no one else wuda been worth it...
He's worried but I assure him it's a good thing I'm crying ...there goes my innocence there goes my whole self there goes that moment that i wud forever cherish and above all heres comes my first baby ....!!

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its ur girl barefeet!

Where art thou woman of substance!!

Heard a story yesterday that provoked a lot of thots in mind that i have been meaning to put in words but it never happens.. A guy meets a girl and within 2 weeks they have sex after that they do it every where in the club ..she invites him to her place of work and they do it there etc then they have a major argument which was that she wants him to go without protection .. In her words she wants to feel him inside of her!! Ok let's pause I was quite ok with all of the above until we got to the bit without protection?!! I had to ask if she is asking to go without protection after 2 months my thing is she must have been doing this with her previous partners... Whatevr happened to aids.. Whatever happend to stds, ..whatever happened to unwanted babies.. Cos for her to suggest that she definitely has been doin it without protection ... Which then lead to my third question if a guy sees all these signs is he thinking yeh I cn marry her ..or does he get his brains out of his balls and say men this isn't good reading and get the he'll out..

Which then leads me to my initial post I was gonna write about being a virgin

But I guess that sets the mood for the conversation although it may seem I'm saying being anything else apart from a virgin is not good reading ..: far from it.. I'm saying where are all the women of substance in our generation .. Who have got other things to bring to the table .. Like personality, finance, principles etc

Here's why u shud marry a virgin
I've been thinking lately
Marrying a virgin has its ups and downs but the the beauty of it is that the downs can be tweaked to be a positive..

Marrying a virgin means u get to build a sexual life together like from ground zero..
She will always think u do it real good cos she hasn't Tasted any better
She will experiment with u to a default..
Cos she doesn't know any better u will be the icing on the cake that she has been waiting for
You can push the boundaries cos she doesn't know any better if it hurts or not etc
In many ways she can be Whatever u want her to be cos she might have preconceived ideas that can be changed rather than static

And the list goes

On the other hand

She might be so crap in bed cos she ain't done it before and is too shy to learn
Her inhibitions might be too great that u both come to a standstill
She might want to try others partners out since she has tasted the forbidden fruit... So she might think there must be better out there
Also cos she has tasted the forbidden fruit her libido levels cud accelerate whilst u might collapse from exhaustion
Cos it's totally new to her it's like a drug she might get addicted to it

So from my few and many words I hope I have convinced you not to convince u that marrying a virgin is the way forward and wen u don't use protection be ready for the consequences...

It's ur girl barefeet!!